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I have been wanting to do this for a long time, create a site for my thoughts, but have always put this off. I have decided to turn my life around (yesterday) 😜 and do the things that I have always been wanting to do with no more delays.

The thing that I was putting off the most was creating a site as this. I do not know why, but everytime I was thinking of creating the site, I would end up on YouTube or some other form of media to take my focus from doing the task. Well, no more!



I wanted to create a site similar to my journal, just note down the date an time and release my thoughts. Also my entries will be in chronological order and no pagination, all my entries will be on one page. 😂

I have reached a milestone! Took me a few hours, but I got this done. I do feel a "sigh of relief" in having completed this task! 👏

The Conan Gray concert was tonight (section 19 😁). I did not go, but I know someone who did. 😜 @10:43 PM PDT

I am so excited, that I could not wait to enter the second entry. That is all... 😂
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@8:23 AM PDT
Trying to change from old habits is very difficult, especially when those old habits are good, not good as in bettering my life, but good as in least resistance. Examples are, drinking sugary drinks instread of water, junk food instead of healthy food, sleeping in instead of getting up early. I have been slowly converting myself to the difficult habits, and they are not as difficult as I once thought, just have to do than not to do.
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I have a friend that went on vacation for two weeks, while he is gone, I am going to see what I can accomplish in those two weeks. I am a self improvement nut and want to know, if I was on vacation, what do I lose when I am not working.

I am going to complete the entry level certification by Microsoft AI-900 and also the Security+ exam by CompTIA. On that note...
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I went on YouTube to look at AI-900 videos and ended up down a rabbit hole of distracting videos. I will try again today to avoid having the squirrel attention span (eight seconds). I lost a day... 😭 ARGH!!!

Also, from when I started this section, I drifted to other things. Tomorrow (today) I will avoid all noise and focus on the three things I need to do. My friend will be returning in thirteen days, and I have wasted one! Focus. Signal. Avoid being on the "not much list" and noise!
03/18/2026 @1:11 AM PDT

Started the day with a positive attitude! Time to study as much as I can... Only 24 hours in a day and I have approximately 15 hours left before my 24 hours is up... My friend will be back in twelve days! 🕛⏰
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I have been busy working harder on my job than on myself. I am going to get lunch, and when I return, time for AI!
@12:46 PM PDT

I do not know why I struggle with scheduling/time management. I knwo what to do, but cannot seem to do what I need to do. I wander off and avoid the easy stuff! Just plain ridiculous!!! Common man, time is running out. You friend will be back in eleven days! Just do it! Day in day out, I keep repeating the same thing. My life is like the Ground hog day movie, except something changes for me every day... I am a day older, so each day is not the same!


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Common... You got this. Get going! Do AI, Security+... Concentrate on those. Go!
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MAN! Why am I sabataging myself. I know what to do, but keep avoiding what I need to do... Going to try again. Starting now.
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What am I doing? Delay, delay, delay...
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@9:05 AM PDT One of my all time favorite martial artist (after Bruce Lee), Chuck Norris, passed away yesterday at 86 years old. 🙏😢
Respect

A reminder to not delay and keep putting things off!
@9:14 AM PDT

I believe I now understand. I see things a little different as I learn. I read this quote and believe the quote to be true.

What you see, cannot be unseen. Be careful of what you want, you might actually get what you want.

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I started to go down a rabbit hole at the above time... and found the following:

If you dare speak the truth and people know the truth, they will kill you for speaking the truth. Don't try to convience anyone the truth, just know the truth for yourself and be free yourself, but you can never ever convience someone who does not want to listen. Don't try to convience them, they will just kill you.

If you want have meaning you have to struggle for what you want, and that requires pain and suffering."

I need to concentrate on myself. Seek things that I find to provide me the most wisdom and value and work all I can to meet my goals. That is what is needed. I believe that is the simplest that I can put this for me. Do not deviate from my goal, for when I do, I will forever be damned.

I started AI-900 and Security+. I will double my study time. I want to complete both these certifications within four weeks. Also, AI-900 is to retire will retire on June 30, 2026. The AI-900 will become AI-901. I will tackle that on after I do the Linux+ certification.

I am feeling good! I got a good start. I believe I have all the need studying resources, so now just up to me to follow through!
@5:34 PM PDT

A brand new day. As much as I want to continue to study, I know I need sleep to regenerate my energy. I just heard a facinating statement, "You must be who you want to be before you can ever be that person. Change your behavior and you will change your life." 🤔

Show up and follow the schedule. If I have not created one, then that is my first problem, and to create one. Then, stay on schedule as my goal!
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I reread my previous entry and there were so many errors I had to correct, and the entry was not even long. I believe due to my energy level dipped. I ate breakfast, four eggs and rice, and that was all I ate. I am trying to get down to 135 lbs. I am currently at 180 lbs. I am changing my life from the errors I made. The difficult thing about catching up, is much more difficult that maintaining what was already attained. I was not fat when I was younger, I fought myself to become like this. Now I have to fight to get back where I was. Much of life, IMHO, is just that, a fight. Each day, each hour, each second is a fight to do or not to do. Which thought wins that fight determines the direction of my life. Do I eat the burger and fries, or do I go for the salad? Do I drink the soda (hmmm delicious sugar) or water (no flavor)? Do I watch a YouTube video (of course never just one), or do I read a life changing book? The constant battle, and like any battle that I want to win, I will have to have a blueprint, a plan. If I do not have the plan, then more than likely, I will lose when the event of choice comes up. The best thing I can do, think and plan prior to the event, so I have an answer. No thinking necessary. Similar to Steve Jobs and mark Zackerberng in getting dressed. No thinking necessary. I have to do the plan, else, the daily battles I face and I will have to fight and I do not have the time to fight. I have to make each day as simple to follow as possible.
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I am adding a few projects onto my plate. I know I have to remove something, otherwise I will get overwhelmed and crash, but I am going to do a stress test and see how far I can go.
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Adding HTML/CSS/JavaScript/PHP and MySQL/MariaDB to my plate. I want to create project(s) that is in my mind and see come alive. I do not have experience, but no better way than hands on! Figure things out as I go forward. 😜
@8:18 PM PDT

Although I nodging forward with my studies, my effort is going really slow. I hope this picks up as I learn more. I believe the learning curve is steep, as I lack the knowledge and experience in the subject. Just keep going! Just keep going! If I stop now I will regret for stopping, as I have on previous attemps. Just imagine how much further I would be if I did not stop! 😠😡🤬
@8:44 AM PDT

Sometimes I amazingly surprise myself at what I can do. I have created some amazing Web projects for work from scratch. I look back and think, I did that? 🤔 Whoa! Why I did not continue building my skills, I really do not know. But I do know this, I can always start and not quit, which I am doing now! 😊
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I have been doing the zombie today. Low energy! Keep wanting to fall asleep... I have been fighting. I have three hours left. Going to to read AI-900 study material and then watch tutorials on AI-900 until midnight. ARGH!!! 🤬
@8:59 PM PDT

Do not try to convince anyone, they will only challenge me and try to change my mind.

I had an "ah ha" moment last night and know why I am not succeeding in life, I fail to reamin consistent. I have all the opportunities avialable to me, but do not take advantage and slack off. The Jim Rohn statement, "What is easy to do, is also easy not do.", is so true! It's easy to read and study and get ahead, and also easy not to read an not get ahead. I will take the former rather than the latter. All I have to do is start, and with that, I start my day of opportunities!
@8:56 AM PDT

April first! A start of the second quarter of the year. The first quarter was rough. I planned a lot, but did not get anything done.
@12:11 AM PDT

I know what to do, and think over and over, again and again, but still I do not do what I know I should be doing... WTH!!! I will try again... NOW!!!
@11:59 PM PDT

Ok, ok... I will continue to study Azure, AWS, security, etc... but my main focus and have always been my main interest... Full Stack Developer-->DevOps. Final Answer!
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True change requires internal willingness...
@10:26 AM PDT
I learned a new word:
max·im
/ˈmaksəm/

noun: maxim
plural noun: maxims

a short, pithyconcise and
forcefully expressive statement expressing a general truth or rule of conduct.
"the maxim that actions speak louder than words"

Origin



late Middle English (denoting an axiom): from French maxime, from medieval Latin (propositio) maxima ‘largest or most important (proposition)’.
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@10:39 PM PDT I have been able to fight resistance today! I was able to add the popup definition, when I create a word that I would like to have a definiton to. I also started the Amazon Junior Software Developer course on Coursera. 🎉 I am going to make sure that this year is not going to be the same as last year or any previous years. I have stagnated too long, to where I am feeling I am less intelligentThe mental capacity to reason,
plan, solve problems, think abstractly,
and comprehend complex ideas.

"What you do not hate, you will tolerate." -Malcolm X

I am hating my current situation that I am not improving, so I am not tolerating this behavior any further. True change requires internal willingness! 👍

I am making some slight changes in my life: YouTube will only be used for educational purposes. I will only drink Water, black coffee and black tea. No more sugary treats!

So manny things to do and sooo little time. Keep going until I cannot go anymore!
@6:52 AM PDT

Create my own retirement. My own pension plan. secure my future. If I don't have the interest in planning for my future, no one else will and I am for sure doomed when I am old and want to enjoy life without having to work. What is my exit strategy?

Gemini: Newton's third law of motion states that for every action (force) in nature, there is an equal and opposite reaction. Forces always exist in pairs; if object A exerts a force on object B, object B simultaneously exerts a force of equal magnitude but opposite direction back on object A.
@4:01 PM PDT

I was able to get up at 5:30 AM and was able to do what I had to do. I felt real good, but now feel really burnt out... I might just have to get used to this new routine before my body and mind adjusts to the new schedule.
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